Well, today I go in to the hospital for some day surgery. It’s not meant to be anything serious (they’re going to “un-deviate” my septum, remove some polyps in the nasal passages, and remove a cyst from one of my sinuses under my right eye), but of course like any other surgery there are risks.
Am I worried about it, you ask? The short answer is “no” as I know that I’m in God’s hands and he has never let me down yet. I’ve got too much on the go at home, in the church, in my family, in the community and at work, to think that he’s not going to be there for me.
Of course, scoffers will say that that’s my religious crutch coming through, but my certainty lies in him and in the promises that he makes. Besides, if He decides to let something happen, I know where I’m going and I’m ready to go (although my preference is to stick around for many more years for sure!).
So… am I worried? No. Come on!… Am I just a little bit worried… Yes 😉 I’d be a fool not to be.
I’ll be put under general anesthetic. There’s always risks with that. Somebody (or multiple somebodies) are going to stick things up my nose, they’re going to break my nose, and there going to be cutting and yanking out parts of my flesh. I’ll be bruised and sore for quite some time apparently. I’m certainly not looking forward to whatever pain or discomfort there will be (and I’m sure there will be some). I’m not looking forward to the restrictions on my activities or the fact that I probably won’t sleep well for some time.
I AM looking forward to the time to be able to read and relax. I’m hoping to be able to read some books. I’m hoping to be able to catch up on some writing (songs, letters, programs, etc), watching TV and listening to music. I’m hoping to be able to catch up on other things that I’ve been meaning to do but haven’t had the time to do for quite some time. I’m certainly looking forward to spending lots of time with my wife (hopefully I won’t drive her crazy!). And catching up on sleep.
Anyway, like my blog heading says… “I’m not sure what I’m doing here, but I know that God is in control!”… and I know He’s definitely in control of this.
Thanks for your prayers. I can feel them already. God Bless!!
PS. All night the Every Spare Second song “Take My Hand” has been going through my mind… “Take My hand, I won’t let go…” I know it wasn’t written about our walk with God, but it sure seemed like that’s what He was saying to me last night 🙂